"i have found no other justification for my life
except this effort to create.
for almost all the rest, i have failed.
and if this doesn't justify me, my life won't deserve absolution"
"I have nothing to do close to you.
I did not love you enough and you did not love me enough for me to
settle my final accounts with you. I must manage alone and die alone...
forgive me then, the pain that I have caused you. And if you can, forgive me from the bottom of your heart.
That is what I need most, though, the privation that for years has
prevented me from living. If your heart remembers nothing but the love it has for me,
this would be the salvation in death that I could
no have in life."
"Everything, in me and in people, draws me downward"
"I often read that I am atheistic; I hear people speak
of my atheism. Yet these words say nothing to me;
for me they have no meaning. I do not believe in God and I am not an atheist."
"[...] She wants to "laugh and regret." In the case of religion, she believes in
"detached love." Obviously many aspects of Maman, whom I dream of with sadness.
I always have this grave, unbelievable death on my heart..."
-Albert Camus
Notebooks: 1951-1959
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